It's time! You know it's true! What you're not ready? Oh come on, I know you wanna, self expose! I don't mean get naked, but I do mean bare your soul. Bare your heart.
It can be as simple as humming or as complex as a book of poetry recited underwater with 4 Scuba mermaids watching you.
I'm here with you. Here to hear you. Hold you hand, and guide it in the making of art, poetry, writing, shadow puppets, souffle.
However you wanna self express, I am all about it! As I love to say, you do you boo! And I will celebrate it and cheer you on, because it takes guts to show up in a world where there is judgment. It takes courage to say hey, yah I am going to draw that cat and fuck all y'all who say the mouth looks funny. Well the mouth is funny, because that cat is smiling, it's a fucking happy cat comedian okay? And it's going to tell jokes on stage and we are all going to applaud it ( while surreptitiously filming it for YouTube).
I'm not here to tell you what to do. I'm not here to tell you how to self express. I'm just a playmate and a spark. I am loud and proud and I am me. And I inspire others by example. Or so I have been told. But I also have lots of tricks in my tool belt and I love to share tricks, that are really treats of self expression, with you.
Is the term self expression, daunting?
Let's try another.
We are here to play with each other. Experiment, laugh, fuck up, cheer at that, laugh some more and PLAY!
So come play with me!
Who am I?
Growing up my cousins gave me a moniker. A nickname that gave me a knot of shame in my belly, because all I wanted was to be free and they summed up in one phrase, that I was not, that I was "serious Alice."
The nickname was probably based on the fact that I had a scowl that could curdle milk and I was such a stickler for the rules that I would ferociously murder you if you cheated. See I liked to win and to be in charge. If people weren't following the rules, my world felt out of control.
Despite my sour nickname, I still adored a rollicking game of kick the can, drew fantastical beings on the daily and thumped around like an elephant in my attempts to dance like a ballerina. In other words,the seriousness could never drown out the spark of my spirit. I blazed like a freaking supernova. A supernova who happened to be wearing, but was not defined by, a serious mask.
Until, it did. Until it drowned everything else out.
For a few years in my mid to late twenties, I was lost and overwhelmed in a sea of burnout, bad boundaries and spiritual righteousness. I thought I had to say yes to everyone. Thought I had to stay in unhealthy relationships. thought that's what unconditional love meant, that I just had to love people more, try harder and meditate more. And my sense of humour began to disintegrate.
Never-mind my sense of humour my whole sense of self eroded. Most days I operated with a low level feeling of terror, not sure if I existed or even if the world did.
Fortunately my sense of humour is alive and well these days! And more and more I am coming back to who I really am at my core: Spaciousness, presence, love.
Things People Have Written to Me
"Keep Shining Your Bright Light. The people of the world need you." -D
"Know you will and have helped so many people open up to their authentic self and expression." -J
"You taught me what it truly means to have a child-like heart, to be playful, generous, open and to embrace my inner femininity and creative side."-S
"I loved the Energy and the Sparkle you brought to this festival. You shined and gave others permission to Shine too!" -C
"Thank you for being the Soul that Keeps Us connected to Our Hearts." -P
"I love how you bring 100% of your authentic self. Joy, sadness,ecstasy, fear-you don't hold back and it gives other permission to let go of their walls and masks as well!-R
"You know how to bring energy to every experience. You bring ideas to every conversation. You bring sexuality to every idea. The world Becomes a better place every-time you express yourself." -S
My Education of a Sorts
I am Am I certified in self expression? Well yes and no. No I don't have any credentials that would say so. However, I am a human being and I've been expressing since I was a wee one. So that's a resounding YES! But if you must know I have a Bachelors of Arts with a Major in Psychology and a Minor in Creative Writing. I adore musing on people and relationships and of course writing! I am especially keen for poetry.
Other than that I am a workshop/playshop/love to learn/love to experience life in all it's facets junkie!
One of the courses that stands out for me is Brené Brown's The Power of Vulnerability. A course which really opened me to being authentic and hammered home the message that play is essential to our well-being.
I have taken two ongoing Tantra courses. Which were absolutely yummy and helped me learn scads about intimacy and boundaries! And the people I met.... so in love with them all! So in Love.
I have also started, but not finished Sebastien Gendry's Laughter Yoga course, which certifies me in absolutely nothing. But does let me lead you in some milkshake exercises. Don't ask, just participate ; ).
I also have my reiki Level 1 and have read countless books on spirituality, expression, play! So absolutely no credentials (other than that BA) but absolutely gung ho and excited, standing before you with all my experiences in life, extending my hand and singing (in The tune of Come Fly With Me) come play with me, come play, come play today!